While I was unable to care for Samantha, she was off having a pretty fun summer. She started off with a trip to Mt. Tremblant with our dear family friends where she enjoyed mountain biking, zip-lining, swimming and waterslides. Her next trip was to Banff, Alberta with family. There she enjoyed challenging hikes, wildlife encounters and tennis amidst the scenic mountains. She then spent a lot of time with family in Ottawa where she took a tour of parliament, witnessed the changing of the guard and went on a very enjoyable family cottage adventure. After barely seeing her for 5 weeks, she came home with countless cuts, insect bites, and bruises - each with some exotic and animated story behind it. She is glad to be home now, even if home is somewhat less exciting than her past 5 weeks have been.
I have given much thought to the future of this blog. Part of the reason that I have chosen to stay quiet over the past five weeks is that I never wanted for this blog to be a dumping ground for negativity. This project was started as a way of sharing the story of a pretty amazing little girl who despite all the odds stacked against her was thriving and living a very happy life. The blog attracted readers whose children had similar medical challenges, parents who had adopted, parents of children with Down Syndrome and parents of children with Autism. It was also a place for family, friends and acquaintances to keep up with our daily goings-ons. When the readership became much greater I tried to incorporate post series such as "Zizi's Bookcase" and "Zizi's Toybox" in a quest to share with other parents what toys and books I had selected for Aziza, in a hopes of helping other parents in similar selections for their adopted, delayed or institutionalized children.
This blog was always intended to celebrate the life of the most amazingly resilient child I have ever met. It was intended to reach out to the world and encourage others to learn to embrace difference, celebrate quirks, accept what cannot be changed and advocate to change those things that could be. When Aziza died so suddenly the blog underwent a very unexpected change. During the first month after Aziza's death it became a place to openly grieve the loss of my baby. It then became a place to mark anniversary dates, acknowledge special events and people and remember the good times.
After much soul searching I have made a decision to continue with this blog. This amazing "project" that was started to celebrate Aziza will continue to be a place to celebrate my Sweet Warrior Princess. I may resurrect some of the post series that I had started before. I want Aziza to continue encouraging and inspiring others by sharing her story around the globe. I cannot guarantee that there will not be hard posts. I cannot promise that this won't occasionally become a dumping ground of negativity. But after missing two anniversary posts I felt sad that I had not acknowledged them on my blog. After posting, withdrawing and then re-posting the birthday post of July 2nd over and over again I realized that I was over-thinking my posts. I was worrying too much about what my readers might think.
**Note - this series of photos was taken almost exactly one year ago. On a forever memorable visit with friends, Aziza spent a day swimming in the St. Lawrence river & watching the ships go by.